I am not an angry person. In fact, I will pat myself on the back and say that I have not even been angry with God about this situation. The way I look at it, all you have to do is open the newspaper to realize that life is not fair. People suffer randomly all the time.
However, I am angry about one aspect of my cancer. I take great care of myself. I have always been at my ideal weight. I eat tons of veggies & try to eat the right foods. I exercise often as my blood pressure is consistently in the 110/65 level. I go for regular doctor exams & I get my teeth cleaned every six months.
And it didn’t do me a damn bit of good.
Perhaps good health is just an illusion. I don’t know. My doctors and my loved ones try to point out that my otherwise good health will help me through these treatments. That self care will reduce the likelihood of a reoccurance. Do I have a “positive attitude?” Sort of. I’m working on it.
I do have a very determined attitude: I will push past all of my fears in order to endure any treatment, surgery or side effect that I have to endure in order to best my odds.
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